Today marks mine and my boyfriend’s one year anniversary. It’s crazy to think that it has been a year since it snowed two inches here in Coos Bay. It’s been a year since that one special night that we decided to go public about our relationship; taking that huge leap of faith to tell my family and friends about my boyfriend that is six years older than me. He has been married and divorced and has a daughter. And realizing that that was one of the best decisions that I have ever made.
Luke help me realize that I was afraid.I was afraid of people and life actually seeing the real me. I was terrified of my mother and what she thought of me. I never told the truth to her even of the truth was nothing to hide. I realized that I wasn’t happy lying to everyone and not being myself. Luke helped me become me; the person I have always wanted to be but was too scared to even try to be.
Tonight, I made a decision. I want to spend the rest of my life with Luke. I have always thought about it and told him of course I want to. But I always had a thought in the back of mind that scared me. I was having second thoughts. I even almost broke up with him because of it because I was scared. But I realized tonight that I can’t possibly find someone as amazing as Luke. He cares about me. He actually shows his feelings towards me. He loves me for me. He loves me the most when I am myself. He absolutely loves my flaws and my body. Because he doesn’t see them as flaws. He loves them because they make up me.
He did the most amazing thing for me tonight for out anniversary. When I went to his house to pick up some of my stuff, there were christmas lights hanging the doorway with the door opened. Luke was standing in the doorway waiting to greet me. He covered my eyes and walked me to his room. He took his hands away and went I opened my eyes, I was completely in shock. He wrote with christmas light, “I love you, Hannah” in his room. He has amazing music on and he has champagne waiting. It was just so thoughtful and sweet. No one has ever come close to doing something that amazing for me before. It made me cry and I couldn’t stop smiling and crying tears of joy.
We went into the kitchen and danced to the music and sang to each other the love songs and the meaningful words. It was such an amazing night that I will never forget :)
